So I managed to go to the RP group last night.
It did take some effort
a: to go to the place (where i was, of course, the first one there)
b: to wait around for other people
c: to go into the building
d: to stay
but i did it all. it was very awkward at first because of course people don't just swarm around you and fully socialise, so it took me some time to really integrate but by the end of the night i was fully involved in a game and talking well to a couple of the members
the only thing that I'm not happy about was that i couldn't seem to help myself in my nervousness telling the guy who runs it, and whoever else was listening at the time, that i have real social issues, have difficulty attending something new, may not come back next week. we'll see. i mean, its all true but there's just no need to divulge it, particularly to strangers.
i am happy about the fact that there was a girl there who made a comment that really annoyed me (beyond her habit of shouting "ROLL A 1" every time i rolled the dice) and while i wanted to argue with her i made myself stop as i didn't want to be the new guy who causes trouble. i even managed not to give her the cold shoulder for more than about 5 mins. Score!
so, all in all a successful night. i enjoyed the game (Dystopian Wars, which has some really excellent steampunk navies) and by the end of the evening i was back to being my old rambunctious gaming self.
its nice to be back amongst my own kind :)